A little teary...

Man, I have been pretty emotional lately! I took a pregnancy test just now, cause I was really curious...no I am not pregnant. But that would be pretty crazy if I was! However, unrelated.... I have been feeling sad inside this week because my friend from Victoria found out he has cancer on the bone on his hip. He found out late last year, and under went treatment. The cancer was gone! Now, it is back. He is married with a little girl under 2 years old. She was only 5 months when they found out he had cancer. I feel so sad about this. I'm not close friends with Reuban, but I am a wife and I am a Mother now, and I just can't imagine what they must be going through! I feel so bad for them, and I don't know what I would do if I was in their situation. Tonight I called my Mom to talk and their friend Dez was over. His wife Jane passed away last year of cancer and my Mom was with her almost everyday for her last months of life and was there when she died. It was really tragic, Jane was only in her 40s and her and Dez had only been married for 3 + years...Jane withered away to literally skin and bone and looked hardly at all like herself when she died. It was extremely sad and difficult for all her family, and for my Mom to go through, but she was such a faithful friend to Jane. None of her other friends were around like my Mom was. They played "My Soul Hungered" sung by my brother Josh and I at her funeral. Jane wanted that. That really touched me. So tonight I called my Mom to talk, and she told me Dez was over. I talked to her for just a few minutes. After I hung up I just had a big feeling that Dez was having a hard day and really missing Jane. So I called my Mom back, and asked her if he was. She said yes. I told her some things to say to Dez, and started to cry. I cried after hanging up the phone thinking about Dez and Jane, and Rueban and his wife Faith and little girl. Cancer is such a rapid and harsh disease, and my heart just goes out to these people I know personally that are struggling with these loses. It also makes me feel blessed and want to cherish the relationships I have in my life. I know that we all will die...somehow, and at some time. I don't think about this too often, cause it kind of scares me. The fact that really any second we could just all of sudden not be on this earth anymore is reality. The fact that someone we love so much can all of a sudden be gone, not to see them again in this life is almost more than I can bear. Death is very hard for me to deal with, even with all my beliefs of our faith and that there is life after death. I wonder how I will die? But in the end, I believe in our Savior and Heavenly Father and all they have taught. I am very grateful for the knowledge that there is life after death, we will see our loved ones again, and there are living, just in another place.